ok so i feel like a major failure. idk i have just been thinking alot to myself lately... not a good thing.... well...idk
i feel like my life is all going downhill. i mean sure my life is pretty good and all .... but theres a lot of bad stuff too. i cant get over habits that ive been trying to get over for months and it just wont go away.
the only really good thing in my life is adam and my belief in God. like with adam i feel like i can be myself and not have to be something else like i .... am for once not being a hypocrit. i look at my daily life and c how much i put on an act but around him im the real me .... quiet but still fun.... idk... i guess its just our personalities collide into something bueatiful
not even my life at home is going good. i have the worst attitude around my parents cause i think they should do everything for me and get nothing in return.
wait im... thinking... it will come to me... o ok ... um every day ive been having these day dreams that i get beat up and i am in the hospital and like i wont let adam c me cause i look like shit and i cant stand not seeing him .... and he really wants to c me and than i have another day dream that adam dies and i kill myself... DUDE THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH ME!!!
i really dont know wat to do anymore.... just ..... idk
on a better note happy birthday marilyn!!! sweet sixteen!!!
kelso so ... idk sad maybe
comment if u think u can help ..... no 1 really can | 
